Stuck in yourself
Trapped in the cracks of pride
And pockets of air beneath the rocks
Your sorry soul will hide
And living in the dark
And happy in the cold
Boundaries and conditioning
and what you know.
And living once...and...loving once
And meaning something.

Watch it go.

Too sad to lose, too out to live
Too wrong and guilty and lost.
So blackened with the troubled lies
and Lack of life within it all
So drab and dull and cold.
And simmering like you all until i'm old.

Watch it go.

Escape the endlessness
Of being so alone
And diving now, into the unknown
How i hope the arms of God
Will bring me home.

Watch me go.

New Pudsey, the sounds of New Pudsey

The name that taunts me.

And chinese women in blue and black
And i thought we were worth more than that.

All i can see is blue, a navy blue that lines the tracks.

New Pudsey; i've never been.

A name, a phantom place.

That name so far immersed
In hopeless waste.

Standing at a window on the phone
One half of my face showing
One half gone.
Lips are moving, but nothing to say
Half a window telling me to leave
Half asking me to stay.

I love Liam so much.

Sick

Sick and cold and dead
Sick in the heart, cold in the head, and dead.
Sick and cold and dead
And heavy with incessant grins
Dry eyes, steady hands.
More weight in loveless things.

Sorry, Sorry, Sorry,
I am lost and sorry.
Stuck and drowned with worry
That i'll love him late instead.
Sick and cold and dead
Sick in the heart, cold in the head, and dead.

One.

I hope you find what you are looking for,
For I have stumbled many times before.
Trudged through the winding queues up to the zoo
But seen only things in cages and...i have paid!
I found only one real thing, and that is you.